Useless

Erm went out to gurney plaza on sat. Hanged out with my frenz. Erm kinda fun le. But i spend time with her too. Msg her even though i was with frens to keep her company. Kinda dun like leaving her alone. Well i made a lot of mistakes this fews days. Feel like as though i let her down. Sobs. Erm well last week i kinda promised her to be back early but i let her down 3 days in a row. Plus this week i left her alone for 3 days due to sickness and the worst one was on sat after my movie. When i reached home. My frens were around u see. So i kinda asked her to wait for awhile then i wud call her when they left my house. But my *awhile* was an hour. So she was very dissapointed and she cried. I felt so bad. I was really sad n scared. BUt even though all this happened she nvr got angry, she still forgives me. Im really touched n shocked. Never has a girl been so patient for me. I feel so useless. But she will always be here to make me feel special. I love her so much for doing this. Well the night ended with happiness as we ended up in laughter n joy. She even sang songs for me haha. I feel so lucky n blessed to hav her as my gf. Its like a blessing from god that cured my hatred for love. Haha. Will treasure her to the end. Mwah!! Finally of course we ended up as usual turn into pigs haha n slept. The next day i woke up at 2. omg. wat a pig. N i recieve 5 msg. Ahh!! haha. Then we msg throughout the day not doin anything much. Most of the time dating each other only haha. Plus we talked in dif languages. My hokkien so weird then i got peli'd. Sobs. Haih wished i could talk better. Feel so embarased as a chinese. haih. then we decided to call it a day.